FIRST DAY OF MY LIFE

I feel like I'm stoned
I wanna be alone.
Just for a while.
Weeks on a road
A long way from home.
Just shut off the phone.

And you say, I'll heal you.
I'll always be yours.
And you say, I kill you.
If I do somethink wrong.
Yeah.Yeah.Yeeaaah...

Still feels like the first time,
To stand here by yours side.
Together regardless.
We walk to the darkness.
Still feels like the first day of my life.

Remember the times
Together we swore.
To never give up this life.
Still hanging on
Still going strong,
Here I belong.

And maybe, I'm crazy.
But I just can't slow down.
Yeah, maybe I'm crazy but at least
I'm still around
Yeah.Yeah.Yeeaaah...

Still feels like the first time,
To stand here by yours side.
Together regardless.
We walk to the darkness.
Still feels like the first day of my life.

IN THE SHADOWS

No sleep,
No sleep until I'm done whit finding the answer.
Won't stop
Won't stop before I find the cure  for this cancer.
Somethimes
I feel like going down and so disconnected.
Somehow
I know that I'm haunted to be wanted.

I've been watching,
I've been waiting,
In the shadows
For my time.
I've been searching
I've been living,
For tomorows
All my life.

They say
Than I must learn to kill before I can feel safe.
But I
I'd rather kill myself than turn into their slave
Sometimes
I feel like I should go and play with the thunder.
Somehow
I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder.

I've been watching,
I've been waiting,
In the shadows
For my time.
I've been searching
I've been living,
For tomorows
All my life.

Lately I've been walking
walking in circles.
Watching, waiting
for something.
Feel me, touch me,
heal me
come take me higher....

I've been watching,
I've been waiting,
In the shadows
For my time.
I've been searching
I've been living,
For tomorows
All my life.

I've been watching,
I've been waiting,
I've been searching,
I've been living,
For tomorows
In the shadows
I've been waiting...

STILL STANDING

I wish you were here tonight
with me to see the northern lights
I wish you were here tonight with me
I wish I could have you by my side
tonight when the sky is burning
I wish I could have you by my side.

Cause I've been down
and I've been crawling
Won't back down no more.

Can't you stop the lies falling from the skies
Down on me, I'm still standing
Can't you roll the dice, I might be suprised
Conscience clear I'm still standing here.

Burns like a thousand stars
Though you're light years away
Burns like a thousand stars or more
You're up there, you're always with me
Smiling down on me.

Can't you stop the lies falling from the skies
Down on me, I'm still standing
Can't you roll the dice, I might be suprised
Conscience clear I'm still standing here.

It's something sacred, something so beautiful
Someting quiet to ease my mind.
When the pressure's taking me over and over. 

Cause I've been down, and I've been crawling
Pushed around, and always falling
You're up there, you're always with me
Smiling down on me.

Can't you stop the lies falling from the skies
Down on me, I'm still standing
Can't you roll the dice, I might be suprised
Conscience clear I'm still standing here.

IN MY LIFE

Feel the heat below my feet
I have to go no time to sleep
Can't belive the things you say
Turn my head and walk away
You make me sick you make me nervous.

Times are gone when you would say
This is the one and seize the day
Times are gone for honesty
"My victory is your defeat"
Oh can't you see you've been mistaken.

In my life I decide and it turns me on
How I am
How I live
Who I love
In my way I feel strong
And it turns me on
In my life
I decided, I decided!

All you do, you can't deny it
it's waste of time, waste of life
Can I suggest that you invest
in something more than hopelessness
Before you know, the ride is over.

In my life I decide and it turns me on
How I am
How I live
Who I love
In my way I feel strong
And it turns me on
In my life
I decided, I decided!

It's up to you if you give it up
It's up to you if you won't stop.
It's up to you if you give it up
It's up to you if you won't stop.
It's up to you if you give it up, give it up
It's up to you if you won't stop.
It's up to you if you give it up, give it up
It's up to you, it's up to you

The record shows that you're dead but you're still living
Every time you have died you have been given
another change to fix your bad attitude
and make a move, it's up to you. 

TIME TO BURN

Fear of the dark
Tears me apart
Won't leave me alone
And time keeps running out.

Just one more life
I'm so sick and tired
Of singing the blues
I should turn my life around

Tell me why do I feel this way
All my life I've been standing on the borderline
Too many bridges burned
Too many lies I've heard.

I had a life but I can't go back.
I can't do that, it will never be the same again
And I know I don't have any time to burn.

They folow me home
Disturbing my sleep
But I'll find a place
Place where they can not find me.
Maybe I'm lost
And maybe I'm scared. But too many times
I've closed the doors behind me.

Tell me why do I feel this way
All my life I've been standing on the borderline
Too many bridges burned
Too many lies I've heard.

I had a life but I can't go back.
I can't do that, it will never be the same again
And I know I don't have any time to burn.

Leave it all behind
Cross the borderline
Face the truth, don't have any time to...
Don't have any time to burn.

GUILTY

I'm feel guilty
My words are empty
No signs to give you
I don't have the time for you

You say I'm hartless
And you say I don't care
I used to be there for you
And you've said I seen  so dead
that I have changed
But so have you...

Guilty (whooohoooo)
Guilty
I feel so empty (yeeeeeaaaaaah)
Empty
you know how to make me feel

I put a shield upon you
I didn't mean to hurt you
Would've only poisoned your mind
Never meant to make you cry
You've been so thoughtless
I can se right through you

You used to be there for me
So don't you leave and say goodbye
Cause you have changed but so have I

I never though that the time and the distance
Between us made you so much colder
I'll carry the world on my shoulders. 

NOT LIKE THE OTHER GIRLS

No more blame I am distined to keep you sane
Gotta rescue the falme
Gotta rescue the flame in your heart.

No more blood, I will be there for you my love
I will stand by your side
The world has forsaken my girl.

I should have seen it would be this way
I should have known from the start what she's up to
When you loved and you've lost someone
You know what it feels like to lose.

She's fading away, away from this world
Drifting like a feather she's not like the other girls
She lives in the clouds and talks to the birds
Hopeless little one she's not like the other girls I know.

No more shame, she has felt too much pain, in her life
In her mind she's repeating the worlds
All the love you put out will return to you

I should have seen it would be this way
I should have known from the start what she's up to
When you loved and you've lost someone close to you
Know what it feels like to lose.

THE ONE I LOVE

Haven't slept in a week
My bed has become my coffin
Can not breath, can not speak
My head's like a bomb, still waiting
Take my heart and take my soul.
I don't need them anymore

The one I love
is striking me down on my knees
The one I love
Drowing me in my dreams
The one I love
Over and over again
Dragging me under.

Hypnoticed by the night
Silently rising beside me
Eptiness, nothingless
is burning a hole inside me
Take my faith and take my pride
I don't need them anymore 

The one I love
is striking me down on my knees
The one I love
Drowing me in my dreams
The one I love
Over and over again
Dragging me under.

This bed has become my chapel of stone
A garden of darkness to where I'm thrown
So take my life
I don't need it anymore
The one I love
is striking me down on my knees
On my knees
Drowing me in my dreams
in my dreams
Over and over again
Striking me down on my knees
Over and over again. 

BACK IN THE PICTURE

There were times in my life I was down on my knees
Deep inside my heart I know
Simply put
I've been stabbed in the back ever since I remeber
Deep inside it hurt to let go, goooo....

Back in the picture
Back in hte picture
I wonder what took so long, so long
Back in the picture
I'm back in the picture
I wonder what took so long, so long

Dedicate everything I create to my friends I would die for
But you will always be the one
Memories that you can't overrun, memories I could cry for
I thought I'd always be on the run, ruuun...

Back in the picture
Back in hte picture
I wonder what took so long, so long
Back in the picture
I'm back in the picture
I wonder what took so long, so long

There were times in my life I was was down on my knees
Now it's over
Deep inside my heart I know...

Back in the picture
Back in hte picture
I wonder what took so long, so long
Back in the picture
I'm back in the picture
I wonder what took so long, so long

FUNERAL SONG

I dumped you again
I don't understand
it's happened before
Can't take it no more

These foolish games
always and up in confudion
I'll take you back
just to leave you once again

I died in my dreams
what that supposed to mean?
Got lost in the fire
I died in my dreams
Reachin out for your hand
my fatal desire

I've failed you again
cause I let you stay
I used to pretend
that I felt ok

Just one big lie
such a perfect illusion
I made you mine
just to hurt you once again